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Lessons From the Ancestors – Part One


Boots on the Ground

Day One – Lessons From Ancestors

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It was August 6th 2018 when I landed in Shannon, Ireland, the land of my ancestors. Although I’m approximately 75% of Irish ancestry, I had never made it a priority in my life to embrace my Irish roots. But all of that was about to change. On this day, I instantly felt the warm embrace of ancestors long passed over into the higher realms welcoming me home. I did not know to what extent they intended to open my eyes and reveal wisdom or lessons to me during my visit but I was completely open to them and could definitely feel the excitement in the air. It felt like I was home in a land both familiar and unfamiliar at the same time.

I knew this would be another great adventure if I could simply stay out of my own way and trust the unseen promptings of my heart to guide the way. For I know that is the language of the higher realms where our souls live on into eternity. A language of love that speaks through the heart. Such is not an easy task to listen and follow the heart without question but I think I did well. So many amazing ‘aha’ moments and wisdom to be revealed along the way. All in divine order. All with constant signs from the Universe along the way to validate I was exactly where I was supposed to be at exactly the right time on this sacred journey.
With every breath I drew on this first day in Ireland, I felt my soul restored with an energy that I couldn’t put words to. Yet I could feel every cell in my body resonate with this place. Why should that be surprising since I am the result of every ancestor before me and it’s that DNA that runs my operating system? Even though my mind wasn’t aware of this place that my ancestors called home, my cells certainly remembered it on some level. And I was more than happy to put life on pause for two weeks to find out what I didn’t know about them and this magical place. I surrender. Let the adventure begin!


The Rowan Tree

Day Two – Lessons From Ancestors

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Who knew there is such a thing as a Rowan tree? Who knew the Rowan Tree Hostel and Café would be the first signs welcoming me to Ennis, Ireland on Day Two? Who knew the Rowan Tree Café would set the bar high for our morning coffee stops throughout the entire trip? Who knew that my next children’s book would feature a talking tree and now I know it’s a Rowan tree? But perhaps I should take a step back and let you in on the fact that my maiden name is Rowan. Whoa! These are my people. This is my tree. This is the main character in my next book! How exciting it was to feel validation at every turn arriving in Ennis that day. I can’t wait to learn more about the Rowan tree and the wisdom that my ancestors want to help me share with the children in my next book. The project continues to evolve into something bigger than me with a divine plan unfolding in perfect order.

Thank you Ancestors for the gift of the Rowan tree. I will do more research on this tree for sure. I will honor both the tree and my ancestors with this character in my new book. How cool is THAT! Soooo very interesting! Memo received and an awesome lesson for Day Two.


How I KNOW the Universe Speaks – It Whispers

At another point much earlier in my life I might have completely missed the synchronicities of how the Universe and my ancestors were speaking through the events that unfolded in the first couple days in Ireland. I might have chalked it up to coincidence or brushed by it quickly with a comment like “that’s interesting” and just moved on with the busyness of life. But no more.

What I’ve come to know without a doubt at this point in my life is that THIS is how the Universe speaks to me based on my belief in a supreme Creator of all living things that loves and values all of us equally. While it has taken me some time to get to this place of slowing down, being present in the moment, listening to the sights and sounds around me, and following the promptings of my heart, I feel like I finally get it!

I KNOW the Universe speaks through the whispers that resonate through the heart for it is there that we all experience great joy, when we listen and take action. The ego might try to convince me otherwise from time to time. That’s okay too because it was part of my life lesson to learn to listen to my heart and utilize it as my internal GPS rather than my mind. The ego also tried to convince me for a long time that when the body dies, we are done but then my son Todd proved to me that he lives in the higher realms where I can’t see with my eyes but I can feel with my heart. That is the language of the Universe. That is the language of the Heart. That is the language of the Ancestors. And that is where we can always find or reclaim our God given birthright of joy and unlimited blessings. It’s how I KNOW the next book will feature a talking Rowan tree. It’s how I KNOW my ancestors will help me share wisdom with the children. It’s how I KNOW there are no such things as coincidences in my life anymore. It’s how I KNOW that we are all eternal souls having human experiences. The Universe whispers “follow me” from my heart. When I follow without question, I find blessings beyond my wildest expectations waiting for me on the other side, like the Rowan tree. So my prayer for anyone reading this is that you also practice the art of slowing down and listening to the whispers of the Universe because there you will discover your gifts that only you can bring into this world.

“Just trust yourself. What’s the worst that can happen? Maybe, just maybe, you will discover that you can create Heaven on Earth.” – Todd

Spoiler Alert: Next Lesson involves an ancient Celtic language based on…you guessed it…TREES! I love it!

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The Spider Delivers Another Divine Lesson

I always know it’s going to be interesting when discomfort shows up in my life because that’s where a divine lesson resides, but I had no idea the divine lesson that the spider came to teach me recently. It was a good one.

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I had just arrived for a week’s vacation at a beautiful little cottage near the ocean in Alabama. We choose to stay in an Airbnb rental so we could have a more quiet space than the hotels or condos on the beach. I also love houses that have some character too. So naturally, I was delighted to discover that the Universe had guided us to this lovely little beachy cottage on a quiet street that was located just across the street from the water and it was loaded with special little touches and lots of character.

Divine Lesson #1 – Broken Bed

But My Bed is Broken

I was so happy to climb into comfy bed after a long day’s drive knowing that it would be an awesome week of both divine guidance and some much needed rest too. Although the bed appeared to be very beautiful and comfortable upon my initial impression, I had a very restless night’s sleep with no dreams because it felt like the mattress was sinking in the center and I kept trying to roll away from the center all night long but each time I woke up there I was again drawn into the ‘sink hole.’ Let’s just say that I woke up the next day with a sore back and more exhausted than the day before.
Question from the Universe to me: What does a broken bed mean to you?
Answer: I don’t know but there are more beds in this house so I’m going to sleep in a different bed tonight. Problem solved.
Universe: That’s your choice.

Divine Lesson #2 – Broken Toilet

But The Toilet is Leaking

I really should have known something was up when the toilet in the master bathroom wouldn’t stop running after the first day there. Water represents emotions to me so I could sense that something emotional was really stirring but I didn’t know what and I’ve learned that all things show up on the divine schedule so whatever it will be, it will be. After a few minutes exploring my options with a DIY approach to repairing the toilet myself, I just surrendered and shut off the water to the toilet instead and said to myself, “I guess I can live with this toilet as is until we leave and then I will let the owner know that they need to fix it before the next guest arrives.” So imagine my surprise when the owner sent me a message the next day saying she needed to stop by to look for a water leak because she just received a water bill that was unusually high.
Question from the Universe: What does the broken toilet mean to you?
Answer: Something to do with emotions coming to the surface.
Question: What do you want to do about that?
Answer: Nothing at the moment. I can use the toilet in the other bathroom and the Owner can fix it after I leave.
Universe: That’s your choice.

Divine Lesson #3 – The Spider

And Then The Spider Shows Up

Okay, so apparently my lack of interest in my divine lesson resulted in the Universe sending me a spider next. In my state of total exhaustion, I found the most comfortable place to sleep was the outdoor sofa on the cute little screened in porch. There I slept the next morning away while my husband was off enjoying a round a golf and woke up feeling very relaxed and restored for the first time in a long time. Although the porch was screened in, I still noticed the occasional mosquito or spider around me but I chose to ignore them rather than kill them. So the following day I was quite surprised to see a small bug bite on the inside of my forearm surrounded by a bruise. I had never experienced a bug bite before in my 55 years on this Earth that resulted in a bruise so I was clearly confused and knew the Universe was speaking again. When I showed my arm to my husband, he nonchalantly stated that it was a spider bite.
Question from the Universe: What does the spider mean to you?
Answer: Well holy crap you have my attention now. I have a bruise on my arm and I didn’t even see the spider or feel the spider bite me.
Question: What does the spider mean to you?
Answer: The spider weaves a beautiful web that connects all things together here on Earth. I’m not afraid of spiders. I love spiders. Why did it bite me and more importantly why did it leave a bruise?
Question: Why do you think it bit you?
Answer: I don’t know but that’s never happened to me before.
Universe: Remember the beauty and gifts of the spider. You are connected to everything and everyone here on Earth. What you say and do affects everything and everyone. Sometimes your words can bruise. Sometimes a divine lesson can hurt a little bit too. It’s all okay. Just be more aware of this.

BAM! There it is! My Divine Lesson

After the first couple of days of discomfort on my vacation, everything seemed to settle down until it was time to leave and I enjoyed the remainder of my stay soaking up the beauty of the sunshine, sand and water. It felt like good medicine for my soul. But I had this nagging feeling that I didn’t fully understand the messages of the broken bed, or the broken toilet or the spider bite from this trip. That is until we were on our way home and the Owner sent me a nasty message that WE had broken the bed and she intended to charge me for it after she got an estimate to repair it. Instantly I felt highly insulted and triggered by her tone and manner and the accusation itself. My back was so sore from trying to find a comfortable place to sleep that we actually decided to check out a day early so we could sleep in our own bed. And now THIS? Really Universe??? What the heck is going on? Just as I was feeling drawn into the fight and ready to respond to her nastygram with a strong dose of my own human defensiveness with something like “I will dispute any charges on my credit card for this because the bed was clearly broken before we arrived” I felt my Divine team step forward and say “Pause. Don’t send that.”
Me: What would you have me to do? Pay for something I didn’t do?
Universe: No. You can say that you believe the bed was broken before you arrived. Did you notice the bed frame was similar to the one your parent’s had when you were a child?
Me: Yes.
Universe: Do you remember that sometimes the support boards broke on that bed frame from normal wear and tear?
Me: Yes.
Universe: Are you sure the bed was broken before you arrived and not just the result of wear and tear from the prior tenant or perhaps from you?
Me: I really believe the bed was broken, just like the toilet, before we arrived.
Universe: So say that instead.
Me: Okay.
Then I sent a softer and toned down response to the Owner as follows, “I assure you it was that way upon our arrival or we would have slept in that bed. We both have sore backs now.” And again I felt the sting in her words when she instantly retorted, “I don’t understand why you would not have said anything. You say it was clearly broken yet you don’t mention anything and the bed has been slept in. I can’t prove you did it so I won’t charge you but I don’t believe it was that way.” Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! More bruises in those words…” I don’t understand…I can’t prove…I don’t believe…” How many times have I used those same words? As I sat there stunned over this exchange, I looked down and again noticed the spider bite and bruise on my forearm.
Universe: Remember the beauty of the spider. You are all connected. What you say and do affects everything and everybody. Let it go, live your life with joy.
Me: I understand but those words are still hurtful. I feel wounded by her tone and manner.
Universe: It’s okay to feel that way. Pause and carefully consider your words when you feel like that. Just because you feel wounded doesn’t require you to return the favor. That’s your choice. That’s your divine lesson. You stayed peaceful and used words that spoke your truth but didn’t harm others. Good job. You did well my Child.
Me: It wasn’t easy. I wanted to go to that fight with her.
Universe: Your spiritual work is never going to be easy but it will always be worth it, of this you can be certain. Now sleep well and remember the power of your words. You have the choice to bruise like the spider or lift like an Angel. Slow down and choose well.
Me: Memo received. Thank you Universe. Thank you spider. Thank you broken bed. Thank you leaking toilet. Thank you property owner. Thank you Angels. Thank you Todd. By the way, I think I love spiders even more now. That was a good divine lesson for sure!

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Honoring My Dad on This Father’s Day

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A Gift to Both of Us

It’s interesting that it has taken me 55 years to get to a point in my life where I can finally and honestly say that I honor my dad for all that he has done for me in this lifetime, from both this side and from the higher realms where he resides now. To say that my dad and I started off on the wrong foot right from the beginning might be a bit of an understatement. Even when I was first born, I can see in concern in my dad’s eyes about the child in his arms. Did he know then that I was coming into this world to challenge him at every turn and to challenge any authority figure in this world that didn’t make sense to me? Probably not. But I am convinced the life lessons from my father I learned over the years was because he knew something. He knew I was very different from my two older brothers and I don’t think he knew quite what to do with me. Not then and not for the next 21 years when we were together on this earth. It was a wild ride while learning all the life lessons from my father to say the least.

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No Excuses

During those 21 years there were many moments where I tested him and he gladly returned the favor to remind me of his authority role in my world. My dad ran our household like an army drill sergeant where nothing I did ever seemed to good enough to please him and his constant loud barking tone just wore thin on my nerves at times. But, looking back now, I know that he was doing the best that he knew how to do raising seven children on a factory worker’s wages amid the constant chaos that only seven children bring to the table every day. It was definitely Darwinism at its finest, a test of the survival of the fittest, every day growing up with six siblings. The gift that my dad gave me through that chaos was to always do my best work the first time. No excuses. No second chances. Those life lessons from my father have served me well in my career and in my life in general. It has definitely helped me to get farther faster in this lifetime for sure and manifest my dreams with a sense of determination and grit. No excuses! Just do it! Thank you Dad for that gift.

Challenges of Alcoholism

My dad also had challenges with alcoholism which I judged harshly as a child and a rebellious teenager. At that time I could only see those behaviors as flawed and how his choices were making life harder for me as the oldest girl in the family and my mother, who I am convinced is the closest person to a saint that I will ever meet in this lifetime. Today, I am able to reflect on my dad’s choices and know in my heart that his addictions were part of his soul’s journey and it was perfect in every way for him. For me to judge him or anyone else for that matter, is not a reflection of them. Instead it is a reflection of judgment that I’m holding about myself as seeing myself as less than perfect in the eyes of my Creator. It continues to serve me well today. Thank you Dad for that gift.

Dad in my Dreams

Leading up to this Father’s Day, my dad recently showed up in a dream which is rather unusual. I don’t generally have many messages from him in the higher realms so I was quite surprised to see him in this dream. He was wearing a black t-shirt and blue jeans with rolled up cuffs, and appeared to be younger, maybe in his mid-thirties. He had lost a few pounds and looked really happy which made me smile because I don’t remember seeing him really happy very much in this lifetime. As I reached out to give him a big hug, I told him how happy I was to see him and his smile let me know that he was genuinely happy to see me too. As I hugged him, I couldn’t help but notice over his shoulder the nice older white Porsche that was parked behind him. I thought to myself, “Good for him. My dad finally gets to enjoy some of the finer things like a nice car, something he never had in this lifetime.” My insights from that dream are many but my biggest takeaway is that my dad is happy and doing well in the higher realms. What a gift! Thank you Dad for that gift too!

Life Lessons From my Father

So on this Father’s Day, I honor the man who signed up to be my dad. I know it wasn’t an easy assignment. I know I tested your limits many times. I know the life lessons from my father were very different than my personal life lessons and yet I know we were perfectly sent for each other to grow spirituality through the chaos of life. I’m sorry for all the grief that I gave you while you were here on earth but I’ll never be sorry that I picked you to be my dad. Happy Father’s Day in the higher realms Dad! You deserve all the divine blessings in the higher realms! Enjoy Father’s Day knowing that I finally get it and thank you for being my dad! I love you always and forever! I’ll see you again in my dreams….or otherwise!

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Reflections Today of Being on This Planet for 55 Years

February 6, 2018 – Today is a special day for lots of reasons. Yes, it’s my birthday and I’m celebrating being on this planet for 55 years. The number five in numerology is all about change and double fives, well, you get the point…this year is set to shake things up and push me out of my comfort zone in BIG ways for sure. Let’s do THAT, whatever it is that I came to the planet to do! I say Yes and Yes! Thank you Universe.

And for those of you who knew me 25 years ago when I turned the big 3-0, you also know that tomorrow is the day my son Todd passed at the tender young age of 12. Clearly the biggest trauma that any parent can endure. Yet, it’s interesting how those two back to back days are completely entwined around life and death, huh? Well, I’ve known for some time that I would one day get a tattoo to commemorate my son but I didn’t know exactly what, where or when.

And then about 10 years ago, I met my hubby, Saysana Sengsouvannawho suggested that we get tattoos and again I knew truth when I heard it but I chose to delay delay delay on that front again….mostly because I like to avoid pain. LOL

But this year it was time. Time to celebrate all the highs and lows of my life with a meaningful reminder to me each and every day when I put my feet on the floor. Sat nam means truth is my name and the lotus flower , well it represents the beauty that resides within that emerges from the mud that I’ve experienced and survived. All of that mud has purpose. It has served me well. I no longer allow myself to be defined or limited in any way by what has happened in my life. Instead I choose to remember that in the eyes of my Creator, I am known as a child of the divine and surrounded by unconditional love with legions of Angels to help me with whatever challenges arise.

Today is a special day because I honor my life’s story which I will continue to write with joy until the day I leave this planet. I honor both of my children, Todd and Shannon, my hubby Saysana, my grand daughters, all of my family and friends and each and every one of you who have played a role, big or small, in the movie of my life. Through your eyes I have learned to see the world with a different perspective based on your life experiences. That’s priceless!! So thank you for being my teachers and inspiring me to become the best version of myself.
Today is special because I feel like I’ve reached the age of wisdom where I KNOW without a doubt the Universe is constantly conspiring to deliver to me whatever life lessons I’ve asked for before I was born. There are no coincidences, only divine appointments for me and for all of us.

May each of you who have read this far feel the love of your Creator and Angels surround you today to feel supported in all you do and all you are going through. May you be inspired to see the beauty in the mud that we call life. And may you write the most amazing story for your life….the one that only you can….because YOU CAN! That is SAT NAM my friends and that is why today is special.

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The Experience of Writing a Children’s Book

Writing a Children’s Book

Writing a children’s book was one of the most rewarding experiences in my life, mostly because it was a project that I co-created with my son Todd in the higher realms but also because it connected me back to the joy of writing that I discovered in high school. Having Storm of Joy recognized as an award winning book in 2017 by Reader’s Favorite and Best Book Awards is validation that I’m on the right track and serving others in a meaningful way that I enjoy.

Writing Storm of Joy

The writing experience around Storm of Joy was just the beginning of a new chapter in my life. I’m excited to see where it will take me over the next few years but I’m also honoring the part of me that has always known I was an author deep in my soul. To that high school sophomore who felt the first tinge of excitement in creating a compelling story through the power of the written word, I want you to know you were heard and acknowledged. I encourage my blog readers to trust whatever gives them joy and take some action, even if it’s just a baby step, in that direction. In doing so, they will discover the Universe has their back so they can bring their gifts into the world and make this a better place for one and all. That is my wish and Todd’s wish for each of them.

My Next Book

I’m definitely planning to write another children’s book within the next year, possibly two. I’m currently in the process of developing some new characters that will take on some adventures and use their superpowers to overcome challenges that they encounter along the way. With a little help from Todd, it will be coming soon so stay tuned for more details.

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My Inspiration to Become a Children’s Book Author

Children’s Book Author Inspiration

My children’s book author inspiration story begins in 1979. I was a sophomore in high school working on my one my first real writing assignments when I noticed how easily the words flowed from my mind to the paper. I wondered if I was doing it right but in hindsight that was just my own self-doubt checking in to tell me maybe I wasn’t that good at it. As it turned out, I got an “A” on that first major writing assignment and in that moment I realized that it was both easy and fun to create stories. I knew that writing was one of my gifts because it came from a place in my heart that makes me happy to do it.

Pushing Through and Overcoming Adversity

It took much more than some God-given raw talent to push me to become an children’s book author. It took more than 50 years of life experiences, filled with its ups and downs, to get me to a place where I felt that I had enough wisdom to write an inspiring story to share that might help others. And even then I paused. What did I know about becoming a children’s book author or publishing a book? Who has time to learn about that when I have other things to do? So again, I put writing a book on the back burner and focused on other things that gave me a sense of purpose in life.

I’m confident that each and every one of us has a story to tell.”

Todd Helped Me

I came to realize the idea of writing the book was not going to give me peace until dug into it and resigned myself to a process that I knew very little about. That was scary and that was when my son Todd, showed up in a new way to help me with the book. It was quite a learning process to say the least filled with excitement, rejection, disappointment and hope that in turn generated more excitement… and then the cycle repeated itself over and over until eventually I became a children’s book author with my first book, Storm of Joy.

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Storm of Joy

While Storm of Joy is based on my life story about overcoming the adversity of grief around Todd’s death, I’m confident that each and every one of us has a story to tell about things we have learned in our lives. No one is here by accident. Each and every person has a purpose and is constantly moving through their own sacred journey encountering life’s ups and downs and mastering the lessons along the way. So I became a children’s book author because I enjoy it and I continue to write to encourage others to do the same. Nobody can tell your story except you and if you focus on a time in your life where you wanted to give up but you didn’t, there’s a story there waiting to be told that will inspire others and bring you many blessings for having the courage to share your vulnerability with us.

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5 Steps to Mastering the Relationship with Money

I was born into poverty in rural America. One of seven children. We lived in a tiny 3 bedroom house with one bathroom in one of the poorest counties and in one of the poorest states of the country. To say that we grew up poor is certainly true but we were blessed by the fact that most of the other families in our area were in the same boat. That made our poverty circumstances seems somewhat normal and much more tolerable. But as a child, I remember looking up at airplanes flying overhead and thinking how nice it would be to ride in an airplane if I had more money. I told myself someday I would fly here and there and anywhere I wanted. Today, I am blessed to be able to fly around the country for my work and around the world for my spiritual work… if I have permission.

Was poverty my fate or my misfortune? I choose to see it as my fate. Ordained by my highest authority, me, before I was born. There are no coincidences in my life, only divine appointments in divine time. So I’m convinced I selected my parents, including their financial challenges, with purpose so I could master my relationship with prosperity and abundance, in all forms, including and especially money. As part of my spiritual work, I dove into this lesson head first and here are some interesting tidbits that I’ve learned along the way.

Spoiler alert: My son Todd was extremely gifted at making money before he passed away at the tender young age of 12. So I need to acknowledge him here and his role in teaching me about mastering money. But more about him later.

  1. Relationship Is Key – For many years I struggled with money because I believed I needed to work hard for it and because I felt there was never enough of it. I had in essence created an unhealthy relationship with money. If you can imagine money as a person, I was approaching money from such a needy perspective, no wonder it was totally out of balance. But once I decided to give money a voice in all my major expenditures, things started to turn around quickly.
  2. Money Wants a Voice – When I realized that money is merely energy with a specific frequency, I asked Spirit how to heal my relationship with money. The answer was short and sweet. “Give it a voice.” I paused. That was interesting feedback. So I began to engage money in an open conversation, much like I would if it were a person. The process was simple and the results were shocking.
  3. Permission Instead of Forgiveness – My nature in most things in life was to ask for forgiveness instead of permission unless I knew I would get the answer I wanted. I found that approach had worked well for me in the past but it doesn’t work well with money. When it comes to money, now I always ask for permission on any major expense to insure that my money wants to be invested in the purchase. It’s easy to get an answer by dowsing with a pendulum. Just for the record, I have never had money tell me “no” but I don’t stop with permission. I’m then focus on the next steps to create abundance.
  4. Good Questions – After I get permission to invest my money on a major purchase, I follow up with good questions related to abundance. Next I ask a question like, “If I invest my money on this purchase, will you come back to me?” If I get “yes” on that, I then ask, “Will you bring all your friends with you too?” And when I get a “yes” on that, I’m convinced I will not only have enough money for the purchase I’m contemplating, but I’m investing it with the intention to have even more money as a result. Again, I’ve never gotten a “no” to any of these questions but the fact that money is now a valued and respected member of my team has been a game changer to say the least.
  5. Trust and Take Action – This step is the most critical and unfortunately where self-doubt tends to creep in and derail everything. It took me some time to get comfortable trusting the advice of Spirit and taking action. It was actually my son Todd, who finally got me into shift into a trusting mode when he said, “You need to trust what I give you Mom. Stop asking me the same question three different ways to see if I’m going to give you a different answer. Just trust yourself and do something with it. What’s the worst that can happen?” Todd was so right about that. It has propelled me into action and resulted in blessings beyond my expectations.

That was four years ago. I was still very much in my spiritual diapers at the time and really didn’t have confidence in myself or my spiritual gifts. But I told Todd and Spirit that I would do whatever they wanted as long as they kept my income level at or above the level it was then. They agreed and have not let me down. My income has steadily increased year over year and with much less effort on my part. Amazing! Who knew it could be so easy to make money? By following these easy steps I have definitely overcome my challenges of my birth. In the process, I have developed a healthy relationship with money where there is always enough money to do the next thing. So if mastering your relationship with money is one of your life lessons, I invite you to try out the five steps above and just notice what happens. “What’s the worst that can happen? “ asks Todd laughing and winking.